No longer

25052009

Still can’t believe…

A part of me just died, and I had to watch it die slowly. Yet I feel like I got robbed so quickly. Robbed by my own body. Why can’t it deal with the pain? Why can’t it cop with it for a tiny bit longer?

Dancing has always been second nature to me, an impulse, an instinct. It was where I got my identity from for most of my life and now I’m losing sight of what I am. It was the only thing I could truly and honestly depend on. Guess not!

Now what?

When you find something that you’re roundly good at doing, that feels good while doing it and that someone rips it away from you. It hurts, but if that someone is your own self, it hurts even deeper.

As of today, I am no longer a dancer. I am no longer a part of that family that saw me grow up and evolve into the young woman that I’ve became. I  will no longer be able to get up on a stage in front of hundreds of people and feel that excitement rising. I  can no longer explore the miracle of body mouvement, of pushing the limits, of expressing throught the purest, rawest of art.

As of today, I no longer am.




Une nuit claire

23052009

Bella+Edward+Twilight

Je sentais presque sur ma langue la douceur de nos retrouvailles, une fragrance différente de son haleine parfumée. Le vide né de notre séparation laissait son propre arrière-goût amer, une chose dont je ne prenais conscience qu’après qu’il eut été comblé. L’espace nous séparant n’était pas hostile. L’immobilité était paisible, pas le calme avant la tempête, plutôt une nuit claire durant laquelle on n’aurait même pas songé à l’éventualité d’une tempête.

- Citation du livre Hésitation par Stephenie Meyer

There was no friction in the space between us. The stillness was peaceful — not like the calm before the tempest, but like a clear night untouched by even the dream of a storm.

- Quote of Ecliipe, Book by Stepheni Meyer




Mon pilier, de vie, de force

12052009

lovers.jpgTu es mon pilier, mon pilier de vie, mon pilier de force.

Tu es ma roche.

Lorsque je serai faible, amochée et vulnérable, mon coeur, je m’accrocherai à toi.

Je ne sais trop ce que je deviendrais sans toi. Je suis reconnaissante de t’avoir dans ma vie.

Merci pour ton amour, ton support, ton aide que tu m’apportes chaque jour.

Merci de m’apporter la stabilité que j’ai toujours voulue dans ma vie.

Ici, maintenant, je te promets d’être ta roche à mon tour. Tu peux compter sur moi, lorsque ton tour sera venu de te sentir faible, amoché et vulnérable. 




What I’d Do

8052009

I’d give you everything I own, everything I can to have you for the rest of my life

I’d give anything for you to be my husband, the father of my kids, my happy-ending

I’d give up everything to build a life with you,

I’m just head over heels in love with you

That I’d give everything… ANYTHING

and that’s ….

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I Will Be

7052009

lovemauve.jpg

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

You’re the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe, cause you’re here with me

And if I let you down
I’ll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go

Without you I can’t sleep
I’m not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You’re all I’ve got, you’re all I want
 

Cause without you I don’t know what I’d do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here, with me, do you see,
You’re all I need
 

I Will Be – Lyrics from Leona Lewis’s song




It’s all the same

7052009

I can see the way it’s all goona go down

Feels so wrong to be right

The same pattern going and going

Wish it would be diffrent now

Wish I could rewind from the stat

But I just can’t

There you are…

Standing still…Breathing still…Sleeping stil…

The only thing I can do is to watch you

You look so peaceful

Wish I could care less

But here I am, scared like hell

Writing these stupid words

Waiting for time to come and grab you away from me…

How soon?…

We’ll see




Un météore…

4052009

Bella+Edward

Avant toi, Bella, reprit-il ensuite, ma vie était une nuit sans lune. Très noire, même s’il y avait des étoiles- des points de lumière et de raison… Et puis, tout à coup, tu as traversé mon ciel comme un météore. Soudain, tout brûlait, tout brillait, tout était beau. Quand tu as disparu, quand le météore est tombé derrière l’horizon, tout s’est de nouveau assombri. Rien n’avait changé, sauf que mes yeux avaient été aveuglés par la lumière. Je ne distinguais plus les étoiles, et la raison de signifiait plus rien.

- Twilight : Tentation de Stephenie Meyer

Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars—points of light and reason… And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn’t see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.

- Twilight: New Moon by Stephenie Meyer







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